I Am Jonathan, Am In Love With A Man, But Am Not Gay!
Hello, my name is Jonathan, a Nigerian. I am currently serving with the Nigerian Navy, and I can describe myself as not funny at all, average height, tiny lips, very masculine with an athletic body that will kill you, and surprisingly, i am in love with a man.
I have always thought of myself as a heterosexual, I love girls and off course, I have had sex with lots of them. But currently things have changed for me since I met someone. A man. Yes! A man.
All of a sudden, I currently find this guy very attractive, and we have had sex quite a number of times. I was thinking it is a mistake and that it was just something that will go away with time, but No! Its more than just sex, it’s strong. The feeling has lingered for far too long and it’s not like I am ready to label it anything yet, but for sure I know this is deep.
I love sex with him (only him). But I don’t think I want to identify as gay just yet, in fact I don’t want to be gay. I don’t want to lose him either, he has been a wonderful contribution to the many beautiful things that has happened to me so far in my life.
Oh Sh***t I sound gay right?
What can I do now? Where did this feeling come from? Why am I feeling this way? Honestly, I am troubled, help me out.